Congratulations

Feelings of wonder
sit deep in my soul
when I think about
what it is that you stole.

You kick people
when they're already down
and then you keep walking
without turning around.

You have on these blinders
that keep you so safe from what's real
you try to laugh at people's aches
when you know deep down how they feel.

You are completely heartless
and your blood is of ice
I wish you acknowledged your faults
that would be so nice.

You tear apart trust
and you destroy all care
and you push away the ones
that were the only ones who cared.

You claim to be this amazing friend
the one to always love...
and then you fuck over everyone
kicking them out with the harshest shove.

You will never know what you were to me
and maybe you just don't care
but when you start to wonder where all your friends are
you'll see me as the one who was always there.

Fool me once
and shame on you
fool me twice
it's just what you do.

The only thing
that is left to be done
is to forget about you
and start having some fun.

I will always know you
as the worst best-friend
who is the biggest liar
who caused hurt that won't end.

I hope you're proud of the
person you've become
you are a wretched bitch
and I should be thankful that it's done.

So thank you
for showing me who NOT to be
you've got being awful
down to a T.

Congratulations. Maybe you actually did get what you wanted which was to hurt me but the thing I need for you to understand is that I am one of the last persons on the planet to trust yet I made an exception for you. TWICE. I opened my heart to you, I was there for you where ever and whenever and you took full on advantage of that. You want to know why people are as wretched as they are? It is because of people like you...you will make someone feel like they have the best friend they could have ever wanted and then overnight everything changes and you throw them out like yesterday's garbage. You are NOT a good friend. You DO treat people as if their friendships are disposable. So everything you have ever preached to people is a blatant lie. So to add to all of your bad qualities and true colors you've shown to me...I can now add 'liar' to the list of adjectives I would use to describe you.

W.H.Y.

W - when
H - healing
Y - yields

I hate that empty ache in the pit of my entire being that is always asking why. I want to teach myself to know that what is just...is. And the rest is history. I can't tell ya how many tears and fears and worries and empty aches in the pit of my stomach were all derived from the very word.

This feeling is what lead me to determine that WHY actually stands for When Healing Yields. This makes sense in my head but looks crazy in writing. There are so many things that have gone on in my life that may or may not seem like a major thing that has taken control over me in a sense because all I want to know is why this situation happened, why this person wanted to be this way to me...

And because I sit there and wonder why....the healing that should happen in due time after the hurtful situation doesn't start because I am stuck with the very word in my head.....

I will get over this...I will stop hurting from the person you were to me...and eventually....................I will stop asking why.